This months letter of the month:
When I found out that
I was pregnant my life changed in one second. I wanted to
cry because I was happy but also I was sad I still can not
explain it but it happened. I looked at my husband and the
light in his eyes was so beautiful but I could not get myself
to be as happy as he was. I just turned 29 and 5 days later
I found out I was pregnant. In a way I made peace that I will
never be a mommy due to personal circumstances.
Many days I cried and cried and when people
started to say …..”You are huge” I wanted
to cry more I was 20 weeks and I look like a little elephant,
and still no movement and I was worried I did not know if
this feeling of freedom that I have to give up made baby not
wanted to live. The Dr told me there was movement and baby
seems healthy and I was relieved and I realized I am ready
to be a mom and that I was chosen for this baby and I will
be okay. It is so weird some days you will feel pretty other
days like a witch and other days just like the weather.
I am six months now and found just out
that baby is going to be a girl. I am so exited but still
afraid sometimes…….. will I be able to handle
this mom experience I am used to be on my own and the other
thing is I really want to be a stay at home mom now that I
am in this thing of excepting and understanding what a great
gift I know that I will be love being a stay at home mom.
To capture her first word, her first step and her first of
everything makes me so positive.
I can not wait for her to join our lives.
I can not wait to smell her the first time, to hold her and
to love her. What a great gift and what a great future to
look forward to.
From
M. Kilian the happy mother to be
Editor's note:
Dear M... Thank you so much for sharing this with us... I
must say it has made me quite weepy as well.. we all wish
you everything that is good for you and your family.
Best wishes
Editor and the wikibaby team
www.wikibaby.co.uk
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